I have changed a lot since I first
came to UT.
I think that’s normal and expected. In college I actually can chose who I want to be around, and I am allowed to adopt the beliefs I want.
I consider these personal shifts to be largely positive. For example, I can iron now. Well, I have an iron that I could use if I ever decided to wear anything other than jeans and a UT shirt.
I consider these personal shifts to be largely positive. For example, I can iron now. Well, I have an iron that I could use if I ever decided to wear anything other than jeans and a UT shirt.
But that’s growth.
My friend group has also changed.
Everyone is so mindful and aware! They all want justice and equality! They
don’t watch Fox News! That’s growth, and I see how much I have matured.
I am also in this beautiful bubble.
I realized after going back home for spring break just how sheltered I was
becoming from the reality that surrounds me. Where I come from is not as bad as most places, but it is still heavily populated with conservative ideologies. I was starting to forget I lived
in a world where LGBTQ people faced persecution and violence. When I went home I heard slurs thrown around in restaurants that I almost forgot existed.
In my bubble I don’t witness the
stigma attached to queer people in its full manifestation. We fight with theory
and monitor language instead of for our lives on streets. Not that this
knowledge I’m gaining isn’t great, but inside the walls of my university my
perspective is limited.
Back at my hometown I realized how
it could have gone. I could still constantly be in spaces where I was required
to remain closeted to protect my safety. I could have to worry about how I was
paying for my next meal.
My point is I have a lot of
privilege. My educational privilege is alienating me from realities that queer people
face, and it is also not very effectively equipping me with the skills to fix
it. I feel like the knowledge I am gaining is only staying with a select few
who are lucky enough to have it. The people outside of my university walls are
not able to access it, and I am not told how to get it to them.
So I want to remind myself that I
am responsible for sharing my knowledge with everyone. Not just the people able
to pay a ridiculously high tuition for a degree, but EVERYONE. I just need to
figure out how to do this.
Best,
Heath "swag-me-out" Fowler
Best,
Heath "swag-me-out" Fowler
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